I’m not a lover of high-risk, death-defying activities like bungee-jumping, skydiving, sleeping in a hammock while suspended over a deep, jagged ravine, playing Russian Roulette, eating mushrooms, etc. I have no need or compulsion to feel the rush of adrenaline of a near-death experience. I’m not afraid. I just personally do not find joy OR purpose in voluntarily charging into those situations (no judgment against those who do). I do, however, love the beautiful scenery only observed from some of those incredible heights.
On the other hand, I’m not one to beg God to keep me on this earth one more second than He has already deemed my life useful for His glory and the good of His people. My time is appointed BY God and FOR God and I hope to live every moment as such. I don’t want to waste a minute of this gift on earth (though tragically I have), but I also won’t beg Him for more when I’ve misused what He already entrusted to me. I’m going to trust His sovereign will.
as it is my eager expectation and hope that I will not be at all ashamed, but that with full courage now as always Christ will be honored in my body, whether by life or by death.  For to me to live is Christ, and to die is gain. Philippians 1:20-21 ESV